As a smoker I have spent the last few years in the routine
of having a cigarette at different parts of the day, some days more than others
depending on free time, stress and alcohol levels. But whether I was having 1
or 10 a day, I still knew that I was hurting my body and slowly killing myself.
Yet I still smoked….why?
My name is Elisha Tierney and I am addicted to smoking.
This is where my blog is taking a little bit of a turn from
just beauty products to all sorts of things to link in with my life and plans
and things I am interested in. While I do enjoy writing reviews on beauty
products, I just don’t feel the pull to write about the new things I try for
the sake of it. Of course I’d write about something if it stands out to me but
I don’t really wear much make-up and try to keep a very neutral look which I think
suits me best.
So from now on I will be taking my blog in a bit of a new
direction.
I have very recently stopped smoking and since I haven’t posted
in long time I decided this is something that can benefit me and possibly my
readers.
I have been a smoker for about 4 years. I never thought I was
truly addicted to it until I tried to stop. And believe me when I say, in the
last few months that has been many times.
I would decide that “this box is my last” but as soon as I finish
that one, I almost instantly would want another cigarette. This also had a lot
to do with work for me. I am currently working in a four star hotel bar and
restaurant. This means I’m on my feet all day long and running around a lot.
Anyone who has worked in the same industry can agree that the smokers get more
breaks purely through addiction.
“I’m just gonna go for a quick smoke break.” This is a line I
have used many times myself after a busy lunch or dinner in the restaurant just
so I can sit and relax for 5 minutes. Non-smokers would usually wait unlit their
scheduled breaks. Which really isn’t a fair thing to be happening in work but
it just does. Work is where I would smoke the most….
apart from when alcohol levels are high.
apart from when alcohol levels are high.
Drinking…. When I go out with friends for a night out, I probably smoke about double what I would smoke in a full day. This is due to just
sitting out in smoking areas with smoker friends, drinking alcohol and the
whole social aspect of it. As soon as I have a pint or drink I always want a
cigarette. I can’t explain why other than the feeling that something is missing
unless I have one, also because of the social aspect of it. This is definitely
something I am worrying about on my journey to quit.
I am going to have to
face a night out while restricting myself from cigarettes. Luckily I have very
good support from friends and also my boyfriend who has threatened to stomp out
any cigarettes he sees me holding. Thankfully he isn’t a smoker and this will
really help me to not give up on giving them up..
I am not going to write too much more in this post as I wanted
to just have a starting point for this little series of blogs. I am now 1 week
off the cigarettes today so in the next couple of days I am going to be
writing about my first week cravings, how I have coped and what has helped me.
7 days and counting…
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